Stalking Comprehension

Have you ever felt like you're getting lost and someone tells you the true direction? I have, even often. I know how people feel when their loved ones are not around, yearning, sad, confused, bad, etc. However, it will be a great moment when people meet their loved ones after a long farewell. 

 I have an "imaginary girlfriend"-I mean, she does exist, but she doesn't even know me that I exist and admire everything about her. It's like an artist and his/her fan though "my imaginary girlfriend" is not an artist (so pathetic). I've admired her since I was a third grader in high school. The very first time I saw her face was in a tabloid. Her face attracted my attention in the first glance. Since that, I've tried to search anything about her. Perhaps, because she is not a famous person in this country, it's very hard for me to find any info about her. But at the end I know her Facebook and Twitter accounts. And since that, stalking her Facebook and Twitter is such a routine for me. 

Nearly two years and a half, I just admire her by her pictures, until a few days ago I heard her voice for the first time through a video that she made and uploaded on YouTube, What a moment..!! Though the video wasn't meant for me, I still feel happy. 

The story that I told above might be one of the reasons why I like stalking others via Facebook, Twitter, or others social medias. It might be wrong to have desire to know everyone's business. Anyway, as long as I do not annoy others, I think it's just fine. I do hope someday I stop stalking and have another productive stuff to do because stalking comes from curiosity and curiosity leads to "judgmental" thoughts.

 NB: Sorry, maybe you are curious who my "imaginary girlfriend" is but I won't unveil that. It's better left unsaid.